BIRTHDAY / Men / RE-LAUNCH

I had a fabulous birthday! Couldn't have wished for anything more. Roa and I spent Saturday afternoon at Broadway market finding good picnic things to eat: delicious, soft, crusty bread, tasty spreads, mouth-watering cheese, fantastic mini cup cakes in raspberry, chocolate, grape and salty caramel flavors, apples, olives...YUMMY! I also bought four bottles of sparkling from Sainsburys and the most amazing thing of all: I was able to get a bottle of Absinthe from my local Brick Lane off licence. I was quite certain I wouldn't able to get my hands on that as it is a bit of a rarity and I didn't really have time to go and find a real liquor store. I heard there is a place in Soho that sells it for sure and I tried to look for it a bit on Friday before my hot date, but I'm not very good at navigating through Soho and it was rather late...so I gave up.

I really, really wanted to get Absinthe so we could mix it with the sparkling wine and get totally, fabulously, deadly fucked. I should have bought two bottles....but dang! it was very expensive. 

I think everyone reached a level of beautiful drunkenness nevertheless and our picnic at Highbury Fields, under a lamp and darkness surrounding us was full of laughter (and random grins whenever someone sipped their drink). The weather was perfect. Hot day, warm night.

We ended the celebrations at Joiners Arms which only a few of us were able to reach. And even fewer were able to dance until the end.

Sunday was spent resting. What a bliss!

I didn't care to make an announcement here but you perhaps have realized that me and Albi are no more. A bit of gossip if you're interested: he didn't want a real boyfriend-girlfriend-relationship with me so I decided I'll go and look for something else. If only it would have been so easy. It ended up in a lot of drama from his side and apparently I am the asshole now. Just because, you know, I dared to go on a date with someone else AND! I answered his messages with a friendly note so... I was leading him on...? WHAT?

Oh well. 

I have been very popular lately, going on a couple of dates and getting a lot of attention. And I love attention :)! But still what I really want is a boyfriend and I am expecting everything to happen right now! Please!

We'll see.

According to my plan I have one year left in London. Having so much fun last weekend and going clubbing this week's Tuesday made me think of becoming a London Party Girl for real :D. A sort of re-launch of 'identity'. I might be having an early age crisis.... But I could just club,club,club this year and become decent again when I turn 27. (ew)

I had A third date with A Brazilian man yesterday. We went to the cinema to see Warrior. So good! Tom Hardy is A god! We went for dinner in china town, lovely fried tofu with chili and black bean sauce. And then best of the best: he took me to Heaven so I could wear my new gorgeous dancing shoes, and he himself did not wear shirt, and he doesn't need to. He's a gorgeous boy :)!

Today: my birthday picnic at Highgate! I'll be soon off to Broadway market to buy some good food for my guests. And I need to find Absinthe so we can drink Death in the afternoon. I just have no idea if anyone anywhere close by sells that... I shall investigate.

London has been hit by Indian summer! I love it! And such a perfect timing for my birthday too. :)

XXX

I just did some exercise and it was terrible :). I've lost some weight since I came to London due to better eating habits and cycling to work and just being on my feet all the time. Now I think it's time to tone up a bit because I feel really wobbly and I really don't like that. Some days I feel like this is the perfect size for me, some days I feel like I could still lose a kilo or two but whatever I decide to do or not to do, the belly needs to go and thighs... don't get me started on that!
My problem is that I'm really bad at getting into the routine of doing something else than just reading and eating crisps. Sometimes I watch telly and eat broccoli, tho.
I love raw broccoli! I've become obsessed! :D

Some time ago I was complaining about my skin and how I'm starting to look old! And then I blogged about the miracle cure: the Angelica line by l'Occitane. Just wanted to update on that(everyone's interested) that my skin is looking so much more radiant and beautiful now! I don't think I look that old either and I don't have big blemishes anymore! I still have some small ones but as I have quite a delicate skin and I live in a super polluted city in the end I'm really happy with the result :).

I went traveling this summer, but I don't feel like writing about it... :( I don't know why, but I just don't feel like it. I think there are two reasons why I haven't been updating for some time: 1. I'm really lazy when it comes to writing. 2. I've felt that I really should tell you about my trips, but just couldn't be bothered and so didn't feel like writing.
Just to let you know: I had an amazing time :). Especially in Cadiz. I'll try to post a photo or two at some point... We'll see.

In Ireland I got this idea of moving to Limerick and studying equine science. I had that idea for a while but now I got my old fire for physics back. I have a dream of going to Chile and working with the huge telescopes! But that is still years and years away. I just need to fight my way there! :)

My heart belongs to Kerry

Midnight Sun

Brighton!

Saturday night Jens got the king of all ideas: "Let's go to Brighton tomorrow!" And for sure we did!

How long have I wanted to go to Brighton? I don't even know. Probably since I first heard of the place. It has always seemed glamorous, like Nice! Like Nice for the poor :D! I have been to Nice and now I've been to Brighton and actually they remind each other a tiny bit. Well, duh, they're both cities built on the beach and they have the promenades and the palm trees and the cute parks.

The day was perfect! Hot, sunny (altho when we arrived there was heavy fog rising from the sea. We got rid of it in the end.) and just a tiny gush of wind to cool you down every once and a while. I saw the Brighton Pier, I bought a Brighton rock and I swam in the sea! I don't think I've swam in the sea since New York...and that's like...ages ago.

Wish I'd have pictures to show you guys but I haven't got a smart phone.... And can't be bothered to carry my camera as it doesn't always focus on things I want and acts a bit retarded.
I'm gonna get the LG smart phone! Maybe this week if possible. Would be nice to take photos from Helsinki and post them here!
And then I could take pics from Brighton when I go there again. Hopefully next month! I hope that the weather will hold. Yesterday was the first day of summer it feels. It's been dreadfully cold here for weeks and weeks. Today it's very very warm but cloudy. Feels impossible to breath sometimes. I'm hoping there will be a massive thunder storm tonight! And after that more sunshine, please!!! I want a tan!!!!! :)

I think I might want to move to Brighton... For real. I'd like to live close to the sea. I miss it.

News

Yes.
It shall happen again.
I have bought a ticket.

I am going to Andalusia! In August-September. I have already spent a sleepless night pondering on what to do and where to go. I have come up with my first traveling plan for now but for sure I shall change it  :). I'm flying to Sevilla and was planning to make a day trip to Barcelona on my very first day. It would be a kind of pilgrimage to see the Gaudi  church. Which I love. Then I want to visit Tarifa and Cadiz. Go riding and whale watching and spend some time at the beach. But mostly I just want to chill. Hopefully meet a few new people. Eat and drink and gain some weight.

Before this I will be going to Finland. Actually in just one week! I'll be home 4th July till 7th July :). I hope this one week will be enough to see my dear friends and spend good times with mommy <3. I also hope the weather will be amazing and I can be reminded of how much I love Helsinki in the summer time.
I met a Belgian guy in a bar yesterday and he told me how much he loved Helsinki (had visited once) and i felt quite proud. It is a great city! If only it could have a never-ending summer and more international population.
...and more exciting outgoing scene. I'd be so happy  to live there!

Between Andalusia and Finland I'll be spending a week in Ireland. The first week of August. I'm really excited about that too! It will be week of silence and nature and green and cliffs and sea. I'll be going with Albi. So actually it won't be a week of silence as Italians make a lot of noise... hehe

I am considering about becoming vegan. I have already begun to move away from dairy. This was much helped by finding a store that sells Tofutti. You can't imagine how happy I was! I danced a little happy dance :D. I just find it difficult to live without Ottolenghi cakes and muffins...and real French cheese. So we'll see what happens.
I blame Antonio's brother for this...he made me think if it's right and good to eat even organic dairy. I am also thinking if domesticating animals is right or not. I don't think it is. But then having horses for riding purposes isn't right either. That makes me sad. I love riding. I shouldn't be so selfish :). If anyone has an opinion I'd like to hear it...

Breakfast.

Today my breakfast consists of sugarfree red bull and a chocolate chip cookie. Nutrition!

Angelica

I have found something fabulous that will save my face and hopefully save me from botox and surgery!

http://uk.loccitane.com/FO/Angelica,crg_Angelica.htm

Just been trying it on. I got some free samples when I bought 'something' from L'Occitane the other day but it feels so fine! It makes my skin feel good and moisturized and young! And I mean I have used a face cream only twice now but it works from the moment you put it on. With other products I haven't experienced this. I've been kind of left hanging, wandering if there will be a nice long-term effect.
Even the Angelica face lotion which is of course lighter than the cream seems to be rich enough and fabulously plumping. Just too excited about this :D!

Rome and Primitivo

Hm. The headline sounds wonderfully like my gypsy feet would be wondering around Rome with a bottle of good old P but  that is not the case. Instead I'm listening to Rome and drinking Primitivo home alone on a Saturday night. What a glamorous life.
Well, I would be somewhere else if I wasn't opening the shop tomorrow morning. I need to hop on my bike around 6.30 in the morning.

Rome. What a beautiful album. This is my gift to you: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_1vX24a4BSo
I have it on my iPod. I listen to it from youtube whenever I'm home. I love it so.

Went to dinner on Wednesday night. Took Albi to Ottolenghi. I don't know if it was the strong wine or actually the food but he really seemed to enjoy it. He once said: "I think you appreciate Ottolenghi too much." but I think I have converted him now. We left the restaurant wondering if we might throw up as we were so full of food and cake. :)

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Here's another thing that shall be grand: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fLPe0fHuZsc

Old

I'm old. I'm starting to look old.
I don't know what is going on but my face is apparently going through some rough times. I wonder if stress at work is making me look like I look. And I'll be twenty six soon. Like in six months. Sick!
So, I bought Almond and Apple face fluid thing by L'Occitane and I really hope it will fix me. It's meant for the first signs of aging, he he he. These are hard times. I need to come into terms with my skin loosing all it's natural collagen. How did it come to this?

I cut my hair! It's very short. I love it! I would post a picture if I'd have one.
We broke into Highgate cemetery with Albi some time ago and he took a picture of me there so maybe I'll ask for it and then post it here. We'll see.

I rode a bike to work today for the first time in London. It was scary! I can kind of handle everything else but crossing a lane. It's impossible. Maybe if I would have an agile bike like tho one I had in Finland I could do it but not with one of those heavy city bikes. It's kinda like riding a bull.

Democracy

I wasn't able to go and vote today because I drank wine (read: too much wine) yesterday.

I think this is allowed for a proper socialist.

NOPI

Wow. London.

Wow.
Here I am then. Well, I have been for two weeks but there has been no time to update because I've been having just too much fun. Haha! I work full time, there's no room for fun.

I found a place from Commercial Road which is so cool. You know, East London: for cool people. My house is just between Shadwell and Whitechapel, a tiny room in a small apartment but the place is very white and clean. So nice. I live with Italian people. In an Indian area. In London, England :). My flatmates seem nice but there's too many of us. Five people in three bedrooms, no living room, tiny kitchen. We're in each other's way all the time. Trying to do something in the kitchen it's a constant 'sorry. excuse me. sorry.' But still I really like it! I have my own space that's just for me. It's warm and cozy! And my bed is really comfy.

At work it's pretty much the same as before but with different people (a few old ones.) I've been opening the shop lately which means I need to get up at five. 4.30 on Saturdays. Next week I'll be working later shifts, tho! I like opening the shop! I get to do stuff by myself with no hurry. I can build the display, chat up the pastry chefs and beg the coffee boy to make my latte as soon as possible. Then during the first hour of the restaurant being open it's just a few people getting coffee and croissants to go. Ah <3.

On the fashion front I'm feeling inspired by the s/s collections I've seen lately. Especially Derhy's makes me melt. I came to London feeling a bit boyish. I had the jeans and the boots and the sailor coat <3. Now I can't wait to put on some colour and a flowy floral dress. And I really want this!
Oh summer! Get over here!!
Towards the light, my friend! Towards the light. It's so warm today I don't need a coat! I'm just wearing my vintage woollen shirt (so colourful, I love it :)) and Converse shoes (and jeans..). Ah!

OMG!

Off to London tomorrow!
I'm trying to pack my bag but it's just awful! I feel like I can't breathe, because I don't know how to fit everything I need into my bag D: There's just too much stuff! I wish I could just take a back-pack and go but of course I need my riding helmet and a thousand other things that I'd die without.
And this place is a huge mess and I should probably do some cleaning before I go. No time!

My scale has been showing a weight loss of 3-4kg lately but today was the first day when I could see it actually. My pants fit me real swell! Even my riding pants that were a tiny bit too small when I bought them! Now if I could just keep this up. That would be so fit.

Why is it that beauty products take up so much space? I don't even have a good beauty box to hold my stuff together... That is beacuse I would need a gigantic one and those are expensive. Especially the ones that look good!

I died my hair brown! It looks rather cool :). I bought vegan shoes and a very hipster-like scarf. Loving it!
I promised myself that when I reach 55kg I can buy myself a pair of beautiful Nudies! Trying to decide now if I would like them grey or black.

Make Up

The other day I bought a 40€ eyeliner by Dior (j'adore) but I now really have the cravings for Maybeline's new gel eyeliner that comes with a tiny 'brush'. The Dior liner is a brush liner but I need to push the colour down into the brush from the 'pen' part and it sometimes feels unnecessarily messy because there's always too much colour coming into the brush. Dipping a brush into a gel will probably give me even more unwanted liner but the feeling of being an artist and painting your eyes (more) for real is intriguing.

For a long time now I've wanted a GOOD set of make up brushes. BH Cosmetics has a set of 10 brushes for $40 that I find tempting (when I shall make some money/not soon enough). I just don't know this brand at all but my new best friend, Dulce Candy, uses their make up in her youtube blog. I think $40 for ten brushes would be a good deal. I'm just afraid of the quality being crap.
Apparently they don't do animal testing but their brush hairs are from animals. I think that's the point where my selfishness takes over. I really want that. Like I want the vintage fur coat. No matter what Laura says about not all vintage needing to come back.

I am also tempted by a lip gloss in a pot by Make Up Store. That would be just fab. I just don't want a shiny-shiny gloss. More of  matt gloss, in a pot preferably, but I don't know where to get that.

I just spent most of my weekend at Nufit so you'd think I would have something smart to say but hey...
Beauty before wisdom, right!?

Good Morning

I had a dream last night that I was living in Sons of Anarchy, meaning it wasn't a tv show but real world. Jaxx and someone else and I went to this garage where some gang (latinos I'm guessing, because of their cars) was keeping their drug trucks and such. The other guy, let's call him Bob, started to vandalize a truck. He was spraying it with some weird foam that turned hard as it touched the air.In the meanwhile we were taking a look around with Jaxx.
All of a sudden Bob came running where we were and he said that the gangers are coming back. We climbed together inside the truck and I was real scared because I knew that there was no way we would get out of this trouble. They would find us.
Then Jaxx came up with the idea that he would go and say hi because the two gangs were actually pretending to be friends. He would take Bob with him and I had to stay hidden until they sorted out the situation or would come up with a plan for me to escape. So I stayed hiding under a blanket.
I was wondering when they would find me. We'd all be dead then because if I was to be found the other gang would know something fishy is going on. I mean why would Jaxx and Bob take some outsider with them unless they were up to no good.
Then Jaxx's girlfriend, the doctor lady, showed up where I was and she was really annoying and wouldn't help me and then she went away.
Then this other guy came to where I was staying. He wasn't part of the gang. I told him that I needed to get out of the place before someone else finds me because I'll sure be dead. He promised to help me if I would help him, if you know what I mean. So I was like...yeah, sure...
He smuggled me to his car. I just wondered what would the guys say when they wouldn't find me. They would probably just think I had split.
Well, off we went with that guy. He looked like young Ressu Redford. I told him that I won't do any weird shit. He shouldn't expect anything.
We came to his place. It was this Spanish styled pack of condos. I felt really depressed and I didn't care about anything else than getting the fuck outta there. Young Ressu's neighbours offered him pot but nothing for me. I was sulking. Then he wanted to go home. I didn't want to go in but stayed on the yard wondering if Jaxx used to live there some time ago. The thought made me smile. Then I saw YR coming out to the yard with a knife in his hand. I tried to dodge him but he cut my arm. Somehow I managed to run away and I when was running away from the condos I managed to take hold of dream and decide what would happen next.
Jaxx and Bob arrived just at that minute and they beat Young Ressu to a pulp!
Yay!
My dream changed after that. My mind perhaps doesn't like me getting involved :P

Fleas And Such

I just signed myself on kiloklubi.fi where I can uphold food and exercise diaries. It seems fun now but probably I'll get angry and frustrated at some point when I notice I haven't lost 10kg in five days. I'm hoping it would make me more eager to do zumba and walks so I can update my diary and be proud. The great thing about that site is that it's free!! I can follow diagrams and thingys that are counting if I'm doing enough. Right now it's saying that I'm not eating right but that I already new. A bummer is that I don't have a digital scale but maybe I can buy one from Argos...? Once I'm in London and get some money. I know I should weigh myself every day, but hey... Women managed to lose weight even in the French revolution! (When I was a kid and first got my period it was a terrible time for me and I hated it and felt retarded. But then I thought that hey, some women in the French revolution must've had their period on the barricades and did they give up? No sirree! Take that!)

I should be fast asleep as I write. But I'm not.
I'm taking some old things to a flea market in Vallila early in the morning to gather money for future flat deposits...did I mention I'm moving to London? I didn't. Well, I am. I'm leaving on Jan 25 but coming back in July. I got my old job with a new boss back, oh joy!
Anyways, this will be my first time being all alone at the market. What if I need to pee real bad at some point? Omg, I'm gonna die. Perhaps I should take a sheet with me to cover all my stuff if I nature calls.

I had a nice dream last night. I was on a holiday in Iran! But it was the new and improved Iran where women didn't wear burqas and the hotels were super nice. I met a Finnish girl on the street and we became friends and all in all it was a very nice and colourful and warm vacation.

I had a dream last night that I was a wicked witch. There were some poor travellers who came to stay at my house. Some of them were really sick and I made them better! I said that because I was so nice they have to clean up my house for me or I'll eat them!
There was this one guy who had big muscles and he tried to lure me into something but I told him to go and tidy up!
They all escaped in the end and left all the cleaning for me :(.

Then I had some imaginary grandparents and my mom at my place when a dragon attacked the house. We started running away and hid ourselves to my uncle's doghouses but in the end the drake found us and killed us.
The End.

I spent my New Year's Eve at Laura's where we had amazing food and awesome people and bubbly drinks too! The year changed in a metro cart with pole dancers and thai girls (sounds so much better this way). Then we went to Darkside where they had funny music and gloomy people. I danced a bit. Then I went home. I felt bad when walking to the bus. I felt a longing for London. As I do pretty much all the time.
Well, now I'm just waiting for the manager at Otto to answer me. Then I could get going again. I feel a little tingling in my tummy and in my feet. An adventure! they call.

Better get on with my breakfast now. Hummus is great!